I always want to be perfect.
I always spend times drown in my own fantasies.

I always want to be the best.
I always send energy on new things I never learn before.

I always try to be better,
but better than who?

I don't even know who am I,
all I know is who I want to be.

I busy to learn what I have to do,
until I literally forget what actualy I can do.

Being alone all these times,
even my precious self is not with me.