Again, I had a really bad day, today.
I'm not allowed to be happy, today.
I'm not allowed to get what I want, today.
I'm alone and I dont know why, today.

Seems like the sky told me; "hey, dude, I have a drizzle with some tiny thunder, special only for you, today!"

And I will answer him with a pique-full whisper;
"Well, thank you, Mr. Sky. No one give me something special but you, today. I'm glad to know that you were paying your attention to me, today. But, Mr. Sky, instead of your special drizzle, I prefer your rainbow. So, next time, if you want to give me a present, please, only give me your colorful rainbow. And about the drizzle and tiny thunder that you gave me today, you can take them back. I'm not intend to say that they're trifle. They're valuable, but I'm done with them, today. In this end of the day, Mr. Sky, please, take those pall of clouds away. Let me, at least, see a star, today"

Fire storming,
flame ignited,
blaze heated up,
and the jag of mine burned.

There's no way to escape,
I, myself, caught in a malignancy snare,
a deep tricky cavity
that lead to mere devastation,
and profound remorse.

Lamentably, 
it wasn't my first time.

Let's say,
it came off for the umpteenth time.

These combustible vexations I cannot get rid of,
this gruffness taking over myself,
kinds of my traits that I detest the most.

I, with all my exhaustive penitence,
for all destruction I made,
sorry.

Ran up to the finish.
Finding it wasn't enough.

Climbed up to the mountain peak.
But it also wasn't enough.

Even flying up to the sky,
seems not enough.

Ambitious,
they said.

But all of the traits I have,
this is my favorite.

Don't you have a plan to stop, somehow?

Yes,
when I think that it's enough.

But unfortunately,
it seems like
never.

Happiness is almost here.
I said to myself,
many times
to keep me going,
so I won't give up.

Don't worry,
just wait a little longer.

In the end,
everything's gonna be fine.
I remind myself,
to take it easy.

Yes.
I get mad.
These tempers ruined my day.
Honestly, I really hate this uncertainty.

Hanging on The Beatles' song for the rest of the day,

Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away. Now it looks as though they're here to stay. 

I believe in yesterday. 

Suddenly, i'm not half the man I used to be. There's a shadow hanging over me. 

Yesterday, came suddenly.



1965: The Beatles - Yesterday

After having really bad days, I decided to come back here. It has been 4 years since the last time I posted things. I am feeling awkward anyway but as time goes by, I realize that writing can help me a lot. Hopefully, I can stuff this blog with some random things, hehe.

Just a friendly reminder (to myself) that I am back.
Regards, Me.