no wonder exhaustion comes in the every end of the day, i give myself so much burden. i forget to get help; from people, and even from the One who let me alive. i think i am always the best in every way, and that feels nice. but when i was on the peak of my arrogance, someone/thing better pop up, slapping me from the front and said "wake up sweety, you're dreaming too much"

and i blame myself again,

and i forget to get help again.

when the time runs out, all i can do is make a spontaneous stream of tears, ranting for my pity life, and wait some kindhearted to help me voluntarily. irony.

my biggest mistake is that i always think that i am alone, but actually not. i even discredited the One who gave me so much comfort in life. this is awful.

so, hello again, world.

here's again your unfavorite egoistic human being saying hi to you in a very quiet way.

she perhaps is blaming herself all over again for not being good enough, but still doesnt do anything to fix it;

she said she's using her brain all the time, yet still being stupid. irony.